Thursday, April 22, 2010

4/20/10 - Trying to make it the best day possible....

So everyday I start off the day thinking about my kids, my best friend who's also my husband, and how I can make this day the best it can be. I seldom reach that goal but I do try. So many of our family, neighbors and friends have a hard time seeing the beauty in each day due to the stress and problems in their lives. I often also wonder how I can personally help each and everyone of them, I soon realized it was not possible, but I still try.

I have one friend that has recently gotten some really bad news medically and I'm not sure how to help. I know I need to be there as a friend for her but I don't know what to say to her, she doesn't want to talk about the problems she is having, she wants a distraction from it and I totally understand that. I have tried multiple times to reach her and get her out of the house to try to help her over this hurdle but she doesn't answer the phone and she just blows me off. I'm at the end of the rope here, I'll be there if she needs me but maybe she just needs time to figure things out on her own even though that's not what she is saying.

I look at my life and I see that I have a wonderful but not perfect life. I have many medical problems, I have arguments with my husband and I didn't raise my children like I wish I had been able to do. I am in such a better place than I use to be in. I was married to a man that wasn't a man at all, he drank, cheated, and didn't work much. I went through a horrible time losing my children, but then I met the most wonderful person in the world, my glorious husband David! He helped show me that even though I am having a rough time there is life after it all and I can change who I am and be who I want to be. I "dumped" all the people I was friends with, moved in with David, and started over with no family and no friends to help me but him. After about 1 year after meeting him I began to understand that I am a strong woman and I can handle what ever is thrown at me. I may not like it, may not handle it as well as someone else but I will handle it none the less. Anyone that can live through what I have been through can live through anything. If I can do it so can you.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that even though we all have problems, stress, and illness in our lives we still have to try to make the day the best it can be, to stop trying is not an option!

Wednesday, April 14, 2010


So yesterday was David and my 8th anniversary. it went really well I think. after work Dave took me to dinner and we had a lot of well wishes from family and friends.
I'm back at work today and I'm training again, so no sales yet today. it's not so bad at least I don't have to deal with customer's today except for a couple of hours. I'm actually lovein' it.
Dave's working late today so I'll be on my own tonight until 2am. I really hate Wednesdays.
I've been having a lot of pain lately...... Like yesterday my left hip was killing me! =( I took med's for it and it didn't help. I'm not sure if it's just a flare up or if it's something else. that's what sucks with this disorder, you never really know unless you go to the Dr. and then the Dr. is looking at you like your a crazy person! well.... LOL =0) anyway, I just dealt with it and it eased off about 4am this morning, it's still sore but manageable.

well, back to work for me........... have a good day, make it great!